And the Beat Goes On…

It’s been a little over a month since I last posted.  April was a terrible month.  May has slightly improved but only because of sheer strength of will.  April began with the meds not working – again.  A miserable place to be for sure.  I was trapped in this seemingly endless cycle of horrible thoughtsRead more

Depression and Emotional Numbness

Depression comes with a host of symptoms – lack of energy, sleeplessness, changes in diet, sense of guilt or hopelessness, etc.  Many feel an overwhelming sense of despair while depressed.  There is a sense of drowning in a sea of emotion.  Some don’t feel anything at all.  This is called emotional numbness.  Numbness can encompassRead more

Disney Update

We have returned from our trip to Disney.  I wish I could say that it was the truly world changing, mind-lifting event I was so hoping I would be.  For all the planning I did where Ry was concerned, I forgot one other major component – me and my depression. It’s no secret that I’veRead more

A Quick Update

The depression has been bad lately.  Real bad.  All the old thoughts have been coming back with a vengeance.  I’m not good enough.  No one cares about me.  I’m just a waste of space.  Ry is really the only thing that has kept me going recently.  Someone needs to take care of him and makeRead more