Life Lately

It has been a while since I’ve sat down to write for this blog.  I’m still trying to deal with and work through everything that has transpired over the past few months.  I’ve tried many tactics to try to keep my sanity in check.  A couple of weeks was spent working on the house withRead more

Signs of Crisis

One of the scariest risks of those with PTSD is the suicidal ideations.  Not all with PTSD go that far, but the risk is much higher.  Suicide is often considered a taboo topic but as one of the top 10 leading causes of death in the United States it needs to be looked at.  ThereRead more

And the Beat Goes On…

It’s been a little over a month since I last posted.  April was a terrible month.  May has slightly improved but only because of sheer strength of will.  April began with the meds not working – again.  A miserable place to be for sure.  I was trapped in this seemingly endless cycle of horrible thoughtsRead more

Depression and Emotional Numbness

Depression comes with a host of symptoms – lack of energy, sleeplessness, changes in diet, sense of guilt or hopelessness, etc.  Many feel an overwhelming sense of despair while depressed.  There is a sense of drowning in a sea of emotion.  Some don’t feel anything at all.  This is called emotional numbness.  Numbness can encompassRead more

Disney Update

We have returned from our trip to Disney.  I wish I could say that it was the truly world changing, mind-lifting event I was so hoping I would be.  For all the planning I did where Ry was concerned, I forgot one other major component – me and my depression. It’s no secret that I’veRead more

A Quick Update

The depression has been bad lately.  Real bad.  All the old thoughts have been coming back with a vengeance.  I’m not good enough.  No one cares about me.  I’m just a waste of space.  Ry is really the only thing that has kept me going recently.  Someone needs to take care of him and makeRead more