It’s been a little over a month since I last posted. April was a terrible month. May has slightly improved but only because of sheer strength of will. April began with the meds not working – again. A miserable place to be for sure. I was trapped in this seemingly endless cycle of horrible thoughtsRead more
Finding the good in yourself can be hard if you are in the throes of a mental disorder. It is so easy for us to give in to the negative self-talk about ourselves when fighting our mental illness. Yet it is so important for us to remember our worth and to practice self-love during theseRead more
***Warning: This article may trigger those who self-harm.*** This topic is very difficult for me to write about because of how closely it hits home. I have been a self-harmer far into my adult years. It’s something I still struggle with sometimes. When most people hear the term ‘self-harm’ they think of a young teenagerRead more
Depression comes with a host of symptoms – lack of energy, sleeplessness, changes in diet, sense of guilt or hopelessness, etc. Many feel an overwhelming sense of despair while depressed. There is a sense of drowning in a sea of emotion. Some don’t feel anything at all. This is called emotional numbness. Numbness can encompassRead more
Genetic testing for medications has gained popularity in the past few years especially in the psychiatric community. Also called Pharmacogenetics, this genome testing analyzes your DNA to determine how your body will react to certain medications. I’ve had the testing done myself, so has my daughter as well as another member of my family. We’veRead more
Is it awful to say that I’m jealous of some other special needs moms? Being a parent of any special needs child is a struggle – I know that but I look around at other moms in my immediate peer group and think, “why can’t my kid be more like yours?” Please don’t get meRead more
We have returned from our trip to Disney. I wish I could say that it was the truly world changing, mind-lifting event I was so hoping I would be. For all the planning I did where Ry was concerned, I forgot one other major component – me and my depression. It’s no secret that I’veRead more
Today I had planned to post “The Truth About Self Harm” but we are going to Disney this week. It is supposed to be a week of wonder and magic. I don’t want to curse it by posting about something so dark and morose. This week will be a good one. I refuse to beRead more
Recently I sat down with my daughter, Paix, and asked her several questions about her Bipolar II Disorder. She’s had a really rough time over the past few years and I wanted to see what she thought about her disorder from her point of view. It comes across as very dry and interview-y (if that’sRead more
The depression has been bad lately. Real bad. All the old thoughts have been coming back with a vengeance. I’m not good enough. No one cares about me. I’m just a waste of space. Ry is really the only thing that has kept me going recently. Someone needs to take care of him and makeRead more